Sometimes it's okay not to be okay.

Half dead.

At last I could find some time to rest on my bed with my laptop for a few hours before I'm going back to be a workaholic again later at 5pm, no life I know. 

Well speaking about being a workaholic, it has been a month plus and I now feel that I'm leading like a half  teen half adult life which sucks. :(

My everyday routine just went on and on from home to school to work and back to home.

By the time I reached home by 12midnight, all I wish for is my bed.

Everytime I wake up the next morning for school, I felt like a zombie.

Seriously juggling both school and work is definitely a toughest task on earth.

Thanks god baby never fails to fetch me from work everyday - I would be like a sadgirl94 everytime baby can't be able to fetch me and I've to like knock off and walk home alone like a lonelygirl94.

Oh well, cny is almost around the corner and everyday people is excited about it.

As for me, it don't even feel like the usual cny.

I'm working while others are happily shopping for new clothes, and I'm still gonna be working by the time every else one is receiving angpaos one by one.

Just speaking of today, outside is pouring like nobody's business and I'm alone at home waiting for the time that I'm gonna go to report for work. While I guess baby's house is crowded with everyone, busy with preparing their reunion dinner, and filled with the best ambience.

I really do jelly at times but well I just have to face reality. 

If only I could change my working shift with someone else and I don't mind working at this hour and join him for the fun at night later but nah it's not gonna happens anymore.

I have to say that life is really unfair sometimes.

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I miss granny so much, miss her awesome cooking, miss her everything.

It's just so not a new year without any gatherings at her house starting from this year.

Remembering every year without fail, we were to be at her house tasting all the good food she would cook for us and queueing up one by one to receive an angpao from her with the exchange of oranges.

Sigh it never gonna be the same anymore.

This was taken back then in 2006 cny if I'm not wrong @granny's.

Yes time really flies~

Catch-up with love!

A last minute meet up with Jinglintoh for dinner at lot in the evening. <3

Thanks god I don't have to stay home for the entire day else I will rot like nobody's business cause I just can't make myself sit on the chair and study - I'm losing my self-discipline when comes to studies. :(

I know it shouldn't be the way but I just don't know where to start from, I feel that I missed way too much to catch with all the smarties in my class. I really do feel inferior whenever I can't help but to compare my results with them. Not to mention the smartest, but even the lousiest, no I guess I'm the lousiest. :/

Oh well skippp cause I'm sick of it seriously, it sucks so much that I don't even wanna think of it.

I chose to escape at this every moment, cause I just fail to face it bravely.

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It was definitely a great catch up meeting the noob, sometimes I feel we never run out of things to share.

I'm glad we aren't feeling awkward as we have not been seeing each other for weekkkks.

Mosburger for dinner with my all time favourite iced milk tea - baby gonna kills me when he sees this cause I'm not supposed to have cold drinks since I've just recovered hehehe but I know he won't bear :P

Anyway since we have nowhere to go after dinner cause lot1 is getting boring - they really should get more interesting shops seriously. We decided to head over to her house to chill.

First impression when I saw girlgirl was "Oh dear, she grew fatter." HAHA actually it's because of her fur though, I know but just wanna tease her a little. And for the first time she did not run away when I tried to touch her, we both are growing bonds together hehe.

We had our chit-chatzxc all the way till my butt left her house around 11plus.

Transport home was a hassle - no bus to take.

Thanks god I still managed to be back home safe and sound.

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I'm oh-so-happy that baby is coming back home tomorrow!

Seriously I miss him so much that I can't wait to see him -  I miss his hugs so badly. :/

Well hope he will be back to my side safe and sound. <3

Time check: 2:12am Oh dear, I guess I ought to turn in soon. My dear babyboy gonna start nagging at me when he knows I've been sleeping late.

Goodnight xoxo^^

It's a boring saturday.

I've nowhere to head to on this plain boring saturday.

No accompany from baby since he's at malaysia now, I'm all alone. :(

I'm feeling so reluctant to do anything but just to stare in blank and chill.

Everytime this happens, I would want to change my blog background to a new one.

Up and down I went to search for a better one, but no valid.

I wanted to try on the galaxy feel but somehow doesn't suit. :(

Oh well shall change on the other day.

My all time favourite red polka still look cute, so I guess it's gonna be okay.

14th monthsary!

Oh yes baby! It's again our another monthsary to celebrate!

HAPPY 14TH MONTHSARY LOVE! xoxo^^

Without fail, I always look forward to every 11th of the month - just to think of it makes me happy.

It totally shows how long we can actually be together no matter what's the ups and downs for us to fight through and love it! I wish all this will never ends, never over.

Even though we may not the money to celebrate our best moment at the best restaurant with the best food, but I'm always glad that I'm always with the best person - thats the most important.

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And now I'm really excited about Feb! Cause it's gonna be our 2nd valentines and 15th month!

I'm so gonna start saving up and buy baby a meaningful prezzie.

I always have problems over what to get for him. :/ Not that I don't know what he likes, but there's nothing he's lack of now. He's definitely a lucky guy - almost everything he needs he has.

Oh well oh well, I've almost a month to brainstorm on this still thanks god.

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Anyway, baby and I had our simple sweet 14th monthsary date at Astons.

It may be simple, but when the moment is just right - everything would be great.

Never forget our movie date @PS Golden village with the mission impossible.

Definitely a great movie to catch, cause we both love action thrilling movies.

You must be thinking - why not romantic movie instead? Oh come on, a no no for me.

Just the thought of it makes my hair stands haha! Me no ro-man-ti-cal uh. HAHA

Alright goodnight all.

It's gonna be a long fight tomorrow, shall turn in and recharge.

xoxo;

Red ribbon updates.

The more you shop, the better you feels.

At last, after don't know how many century, I finally settled my online shop Red Ribbon ♥

It takes me pretty long to actually think of a simple name and spend time taking pictures of the items I wanna post up online for sales.

Previously I created one but I gave up the idea half way through. :/

With thoughts of all the tedious matters to handle and the amount of workload I need to fulfill now, I really wanna drop the idea but finally I convinced myself to go ahead.

Anyway I've been busy advertising as much as I can and really hope the crowd reaction will be good.

And yes if ya reading this, please kindly promote to your friends whoever that may be keen to buy.

Genarally I'm selling all instocks so not much waiting time you have to worry about.

This is actually my virgin experience to run a little online store over here.

So please be patient with me and don't forget to support me!

Any feedbacks is definitely welcome. ♥

Longest day, longest conversation.

Every thursday of the week has always been the longest whenever there's schooling.

Now it applies to every weekdays of mine due to having to work at night.

No other places I'm heading but work after school everyday.

I guess this has become the main reason I always hope friday would come by faster and weekends never has its ending. :( Stress is definitely accumulating day by day, just see how long I can survive.

Anyway for once, in this whole year in poly I had my first time chatting with my classmates for the longest time in class. Frankly, I felt really glad over this. The one who always enter class alone, emo one corner, can't wait to leave the class when the class ended has never been me all these years until this kind of poly life hits me. The feeling inside - totally can't be describe.

When someone can actually initiated a conversation with me in class, I swear it's heaven.

You never been in this, you never know how it's actually feels.

Well speaking of work, sad to mention that I drown myself in work totally for almost a month already.

I did have a thought of how am I actually survive through this.

Really screwed up teens life, nothing good has been done.

I fails almost everything in life - anything you name it.

I sucks, I know it.

Breakfast with baby's family.

Well even though waking up early in the morning just to be out and get some good bite is really annoying at times especially when you did not get enough sleep but it's always heartwarming to start our day with a good breakfast with loved one, for this I don't mind sacrificing my beauty sleep haha!

Anyway breakfast with my chubbyboy's family was a really last minute notice.

We were like wakeup-shower-out with no pause no stop, really can't imagining how rush we were. 

I don't even have the time to brush my hair nicely before I'm out, messy hair day.

I always feel that it's the hardest thing on earth to get a good hair day to be with, don't you? I really do.

And I guess it has really been some time I saw baby's meimei and whenever this happens, she will always give me a long glance having the face wondering who the hell am i.

I just couldn't help it but to giggle over her cuteness, really it's beyond control hehe.

Here she is, damn adorable right? Come on, admit it hahaha!

Oh and ya, we actually went to somewhere at Jurongeast market place to have singaporean's all time favourite chicken rice. The stall is forever long queue, I do envy their good business sometimes.

Got secret recipe right? Think I don't know. Haha like duh.

Okay that's funny. Anyway, due to CNY is around the corner, the crowd there was horrible.

Every step you take there's always people around you.

The worse was the big hot sun right above our head is melting every soul of ours, really can't stand it.

2012

HAPPYNEWYEAR!

It's like a flash across, it's a brand new year a brand new start.

It's so fast yet so slow, I mean come on it's only Jan now but it's 2012.

Haha I know you don't get what I mean but it's okay, I'm confused too hahaha.

Anyway, today marks the start of everything new and definitely a better year for me and baby.

Before the year, I has been wanting to get baby something and yes I bought him a cute colors block digital watch. I know it's not something expensive but I'm glad baby do likes it. :)

Even though I did not get to spend the last moment of the year 2011 with baby, he totally brightens me up with a biggest surprise of all by giving me something that I wanted for long.

Yes DSLR! ♥♥♥

My heart melts when I saw it but at the same time it aches cause it costs baby a big huge bomb. :/

I swear I was like "OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?" HAHAHA!

But I promised baby to share with him by half, don't care if he's gonna accept it I'll still gonna save up and give it back to him. :P (You don't have a choice, baby hehe)

So now I've a new precious, gonna take good care of it of course.

Baby gonna kills me if I spoil it* Hahahahaha I'm just kidding heh!

But I think I'm gonna keep this away from my parents for time being to avoid their nagging.

You know, parents will always goes "You have yet to learn how to earn, you spend so much ..blahblah"

Oh well, I mean they meant well but .. uh nevermind.

Whatever it's, this piece of gift from baby really marks a good start of my new year.

I've no idea how much "thankyou" I wanna say to him, but I'm so thankful for such expensive gift, I really am. I love you baby, no matter how much we have been going through we never give up.

I know it has been hard but I believe good times do come when the bads is over. :)

Here's my chubbyboy taken with my new precious! ♥

Anyway, even though for me 2011 has been a hard one for me but I ought to thanks 2011 for all the memories, be it good or bad I believe 2012 will be a better year to have.

It did have some good memories to remember, esp a lot of first time with babyboy.

• My first valentine with babyboy♥
• The start of new life @Singaporepoly.
• My first 17th birthday chalet @downtowneast costa sands that baby booked for me.
• Mooncake-making for the first time @Sembawang.
• Baby's first time to wildwildwet.
• First national day with baby @Marina square.
• My very first colorful cupcakes!
• First mid-autumn festival with baby and my family.
• My first flea held @Scape park with pretties.
• Doudou joined our family tree!
• Our first year anniversary together with babyboy.
• My first time to Universal studio singapore.
• First christmas with babyboy @Marinabarrage!

For the bad memories, I think it's better not to mention any.

It's time to erase the bad and begins on a brand new note and move on like a man.

Do appreciate those who is willing to stay with you till today and continue to be, for those who not to they no longer deserve having you.

xoxo I wish everyone all the best for 2012 ♥