Lost of someone special.

This is our cutest best grandma on earth.

After so many years months weeks days of struggling, she left us all on the 26th Nov 2011 Saturday 0950.

We all know she's going to leave us soon, but no one expects it to be so fast.

She left us all without a proper goodbye, no one really witnessed her last breath.

Probably my maid did, cause she was around taking care of her 24/7.

Well everyone broke down, deep inside.

Tears flowing down the cheeks, pain stabbing through the heart.

She passed away with a mouth opened, I wonder what's it trying to tell us. Words untold? I guess it's right.

When she's still around, trying to fight through the pain, it was tough really tough.

There's no last words from her before she left.

Probably because she's already semiconscious, and we all have difficulty understanding her mumbling due to constantly breathless. She did try to speak but fail to fully express what's her last thoughts of mind.

But I guess we all know she didn't bear to leave us just like that, her 7 children 13 grandchildren.

She has so many of us to worry of, but predestined that she has to leave us all at the age of 76.

She fight through so much, against illnesses that she has ever since in her sixty after a major operation.

She went through heart operation, she almost lose her life at that stage of time.

But she pull through eventually, everyone said it's all because of her strong resilience. She did not give up. 

Having the history of smoking up to at least two to three packs of cigarette, she quitted completely.

She dote us all, she never bear to leave us just simply like this.

It's never easy, there's so much to overcome.

Everything was smooth and right for all these years.

Until the day she suddenly breaks down and hospitalized for weeks.

Her body condition has worsen so much, she couldn't take it she was closed to death.

For months, she has been in and out hospital repeatedly which gives a really bad sign.

In order to know her condition well, doctor gave her a thoroughly body check-up.

Sad to know the news that she diagnosed with stomach cancer.

It was again another torture for her to go through but we chose not to let her know.

Decision making of her operation was heart-wrecking.

Thanks god she went in the operation and came out safely.

It was such a relieved for everyone.

But the pain don't stop here, kidneys start to fail everything start to become a burden for her.

As day passes by, her condition gets worse one day after another.

All she depends on was her one whole batch of western medicine.

The worse is that she can't consume many many food including so much of her favourite.

With that torturous days, she carried on to fight till few days before her last breath.

Her body starts to reject all the medicine given to her and probably it's a sign of closing to death.

Who knows the next morning, she left us without a goodbye.

Nothing was said, nothing was told.

Even though we might all have mentally prepared for it, no one wish it will happen.

Having a funeral of 5days, we all hope we could stay by her side for the last time.

Night prayer for granny without fail for sure.

There's only a last few things we all can do for her.

At times, I feel God is being unfair. Why must make her suffers throughout her retire days.  

But at the same time, she is lucky enough to have so many loved one to be with her.

Rest in peace mama, we all will miss you.

As always, you remain in our dear heart forever.

I will never ever forget how much you dote me, how difficult for you to bring me up.

I love you, granny. 

Paint nails.

New painted nails! ♥

I think I begin to love painting nails art.

It's actually a really tedious thing to do, but when the outcome that satisfied what you expect you will be just so glad and happy.

In the beginning, it was just fancy over the colors set on my nails.

But now, it's more than that I guess.

Yes, it's art that I mentioned.

Probably thats also the reason why I like it oh so much uh.

Overtimes I tried to paint different types of basic nails art with bold colors.

I think I should have over twenty over colors in my collection.

More to go for sure, but yes $$ fly.

But I guess I shall treat like a investment, maybe future I would want to be manicurist.

Haha not bad idea right? Heh. 

Anyway if you're reading this post of mine, you're always welcome to ask me to paint nails for you.

Don't mind me my lousy skill so ya.

I know painting nails for yourself is really sucks, esp for fingernails.

Toe nails is never a problem.

In addition, having manicure pedicure outside really expensive.

 Ikr, $$$ always the issue.

Dayout w/ baby.

Always a happygirl whenever I'm out with babyboy! ^^

Especially when baby brings me for shopping, as long as he can afford, he will be more than willing to buy it for me hehe but most of the time we will always fight over who should be settling the payment.

Haha I know we're cute. :P

Of course out for a big feast is something everyone couldn't resist.

A big feast may not be buffet such, but a normal meal with baby is good enough.

This actually makes me realize it has been long since I dined out with my family.

It feels kinda sad but it's okay.

There will soon a day to come that we're going out for big feast tgt!

December! Around three weeks more to go, we're all going to Ipoh!

Even though it may be just somewhere near, but it's more than contented.

I just went to get tgt as one whole big family and travel to enjoy.

And the best part of this trip is babyboy is joining us too!

How good can that be? The first time having my boyfriend along with my family overseas.

I bet it must the greatest and the best feeling. 

Anyway! Back to how baby and I spent our awesomesunday.

Spot the big huge ferrero rocher so-called christmas tree I supposed.

It would be cool if it's made of real rocher, but I bet it will sure melt.

Ohya just wanna share the foral dress that I'm wearing.

I did saw this online previously and I swear it did tempt me to purchase it.

But I stopped the temptation and gave it miss.

Until when I was at flea w/ wy, she has it man!

I was like oh-my-god, I want!!! Hahaha.

Okay I know abit over-reacted but at least it shows how much I love it.

The color of it especially, vibrant colorrrrrrs my favourite yo! Hehe.

Okay so wy didn't manage to sell it off then I decided to give it a try.

I brought it back and put it on.

Wasn't as good as I thought it's supposed to be, just like what wy told me 'it's just look good on the model' & 'and there's like a far different from the pic we saw'.

But I thought the material was still acceptable, pretty much of comfy for me.

I asked baby (I always do asked for his opinion haha and I guess he's used to be my consultant) whether does it looks okay for me, he said it was okay.

I doubt a lil cause me myself feels wasn't that okay.

But still I tried to wear it out and tada there I went out with the pretty foral lil dressy.

I think probably because I'm fat so it doesn't really look good.

Yet I guess I shall keep it first until the day I changed my mind and sell it off again haha.

Good trade right? Hehe Ikr.

This pretty necklaces of mine was from F21 yo.

 I think I began to love wearing necklaces, like a addiction seriously.

Did you spot the cute lil dog plush and the lil red polky dots footwear!?

Baby and I bought it for our beloved doudou!

Can't resist the temptation of buying stuffs for her at times, especially baby.

I'm going to be so jealous over it, but it's okay.

Baby pampers me too! 

Anyway the footwear was a lil letdown cause it was too big.

Gonna wait till she grows lil more before she can wears it.

And I think she likes her new plush, I'm so glad hehe.

Satay beehoon! 

Have I ever mention I love this like how much a dog likes bone? Haha I really do.

And the weird thing is baby only likes eating this beehoon food, not other at all.

Maybe he will eats a lil but he will never likes it, I wonder why haha.

Alright so that fulfilled our wonderful dinner at EAT.

My dear babyboy, never able to escape my camera haha. :P

Yes the necklace that I wanna highlight!

Baby said it looks like some Egyptian type of style, actually I pretty agree to that comment.

But it still looks nice to me so I decided to bring it home with him. $$ :(

See I told you, addiction. Hahaha.

Okay this is another one that I can't resist to buy it home.

It's really cute, don't you think? To me it's definitely so! Haha.

So there goes $$ again.

This is partly the reason why i really do need to get back to part-time job in order to survive.

Actually I've already avoid a lot of temptation or else I'm ready to announce bankrupt.

 Alright the rest shall be some random took photos.

I think my complexion is not getting any better after trying so many ex products.

Really a letdown, I no longer know which brand to trust aiyaya.

A total waste of money.

Or maybe it's just what I feel, maybe without those products I think by now I can't even have the face to go out haha right right? Heh.

Flea @Chinatown!

It was our flea again, our fourth flea if I'm not wrong.

I was always excited about it, I don't know why haha.

But w/o Vera this time as I think it's her special day w/ her boyfee.

It was at chinatown this time round!

Having our virgin experience, we thought it shall be a new place for us to give a try.

But really, it was a big letdown as compared to the other fleas we held.

Never, yes never gonna be holding flea again over at that location.

This was how our booth looks like, under a tent having to share with another holder.

It was mad sunny in the beginning, I swear we all almost melted out of nowhere.

I can hardly open my eyes big to see things going on. ;/

But I'm glad the clouds save our day.

It may be a bad thing if it's really going to pour but I bet rather to let it that way.

At least because there's shelters.

Of course when the sun is down, our moods got better than ever.

So we started camwhoreeeeeeeee.

There they went jumpjumpjump!

I guess this is just another way to kill boredom haha.

Baby and Yeeping.

Due to the pathetic crowd we had, it totally explains the time we spent to take pictures. -.-

Really to the extend that I wanna sleep. :(

Now comes to the thought of it, I rather pay a higher rental for a better crowd.

We learnt our lesson.

Still looking forward to more fleas coming up, esp when comes to hols! :D

When the day falls, the night approaches.

It's almost reaching the time to call it for the day.

Less than a hundred dolly sales, can't be worse than this. :(

When crowd is getting lesser, we began to pack up and call it a day.

Since we had the time, we wanted to explore the Oakham Market.

But when we found the way there, it seemed to be closed. 

It was such a disappointed really. 

But it's okay, next time. 

Probably upcoming fri which they're having what they called as a Upsize day.

Haha it sounds pretty interesting.

I'm so gonna head down if I got the time.

So dinner at Lau pa sat was my first time, it was huge, yes real huge.

It was like a combination of four kopitiam, I think almost that huge.

But I swear that's scary enough yo, and there's many many choices to pick from.

Too much, I feel.

But it's definitely a best place to good when you wanna have a lot of different food at one shot. ;)